Podcast #109 – Guest Recording Artist Jon Morgan





This week’s episode was recorded at a house show where I met a cool guy name Jon Morgan. Jon’s new EP is full of really great music from start to finish and I am so pleased to be able to feature his music today on the show as well as an interview. We play three songs on this episode, one live and two studio cuts which can be purchased at www.JonMorganMusic.bandcamp.com.  You’re going love this soulful original music by a unique and creative artist.


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Rick Lee James featured this month in Worship Leader Magazine

“Billy Joel Taught Me How To Pray”: This article, written by Rick Lee James, was featured in the July/August 2012 issue of Worship Leader Magazine.

“Billy Joel Taught Me How To Pray”:

This article, written by Rick Lee James, was featured in the July/August 2012 issue of Worship Leader Magazine.

Heads Up for Episode 4 of the Podcast

Well, Episodes 1 & 2 of the Voices In My Head Podcast are now playing online at Podbean.com, iTunes, Reverbnation.com, and on the Rick Lee James App.

Yesterday I recorded Episode 3 three of the Voices in my Head Podcast with my special guest Daniel Dye. It was a fun interview and he even performed a new song for the first time ever on the air. The show should be up on iTunes next Monday and on Podbean.com just a little before that. Make sure to listen to the interview so you can find out how to win a free CD by Daniel Dye & the Miller Road Band.

Matthew Cole with daughter Mabry

For Episode 4, Matthew Cole will be joining me for a discussion on Heroes, Patriotism, and their relation to the Gospel. You may want to buy a hard copy or download Issue 900 of Action Comics because we will be discussing a 9 page short story in that issue titled “The Incident” and would really love to hear your thoughts on Patriotism and if it has a place in the house of worshi.. In this story Superman renounces his American citizenship and boy did it cause a lot of controversy.

So a quick recap:

Episode 1 & 2 are now available.

Episode 3 with Daniel Dye will be available Monday.

Episode 4 with Matthew Cole will air the following Monday.

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My Crisis of Faith (Disclaimer…this post is about honesty in prayer. It has a bad word in it. It’s a real prayer that I prayed and I share it here in the spirit of full disclosure and honesty. God doesn’t want dishonest prayers, even if they are prettier.)

The brilliant theologian Frederick Buechner once wrote “Doubts are the ants in the pants of faith. They keep it awake and moving.” With that quote in mind then I guess you could say that I have ants in my faith filled pants. I don’t know where my recent crisis of faith came from but if I’m honest with myself then I have to say it’s there.

I’m not leaving my faith behind; I’m just in a moment of questioning. In my experience, God honors our doubts about Him and becomes clearer in our moments of darkness if we will just acknowledge that we are indeed in a time of doubt. They are nothing to be ashamed of. Today I have a cold and my back hurts but something just feels off so I guess I’ll write what’s on my mind. In spite of all I’ve been raised to believe, sometimes I feel like God is an absent father. I feel at times like a child desperately trying to find Him, while He seems to be conspicuously absent.

Maybe it’s just me but lately in communal worship gatherings it seems like we speak of God as if He isn’t there. I feel like I’m speaking if Him in that way right now as I type. Our communal prayer times feel like sermons with our eyes closed. Sometimes it feels like our prayers to God are actually prayers prayed to man, trying to convince others that God is near. If we really are addressing God in our prayer times, then we are trying to convert Him to Christianity or building Him up with bumper sticker slogans about faith.

Maybe subconsciously we think that God needs to be converted. After all, God the Father has been around far longer than the concept of a Messiah Christ who existed before all time. For most of the Old Testament there’s no concept of a devil in the way contemporary pop-Christianity envisions him. All things, both good and evil, come from God in the OT and that is very problematic for me. Since we have such an ancient faith, why are we so against interacting with people of other ancient faiths? For the most part, any effort in American churches to have a more than one-sided dialogue about other religions will get you silenced in a hurry. It will probably will make your faith suspect as well and get you a spot on the prayer request list as a lost person at the next meeting of the ladies Bible study.

Does anyone else see the insecurity in behaviors like this? Isn’t there a need to question things that we find ourselves insecure about? Why are we so scared of talking to people who aren’t Christians but who do share our common Abrahamic faith? Why can’t we have true and generous dialogue with people who practice the faiths of Bábism, Bahá’í, Islam, Judaism, Rastafari, Mandaeans, Sabians, Samaritanism, and Unitarian Universalism. There are many more religions in the world, but these are ones that share our Abrahamic descent.

Creating dialogue with people of other faiths doesn’t mean that we are going to join up and become card-carrying members of their religion. One major problem I see is that many evangelical Christians are only interested in having a dialogue with non-Christians if they can find some leverage to convert them. When did following Christ mean that we can only have relationships with others as long as we can convert them? Doesn’t this outlook dehumanize them? Doesn’t it make us see non-Christians as little more than targets to aim our message at? Shouldn’t we care about them as people first and foremost even if they never believe Jesus is Lord in the way we do?

I’m not saying that we can’t share our faith with them when the opportunity presents itself. Faith is an integral part of our lives as Christians and we should never try to disconnect that from who we are. I just believe that God the Holy Spirit is the one who does the convincing and the changing of a person’s heart and mind. Thomas Merton, one of my faith heroes, was led to Christ by a Hindu gentleman who pointed him away from Hinduism and toward a little book by Thomas à Kempis called “the Imitation of Christ.” Apparently our God isn’t threatened by people of other faiths, and in fact uses them to bring people to Himself.

Well, enough digression about inter-faith dialogue. I should get back to my original reason for writing this blog with is my current crisis of faith. I have these crises from time to time. Maybe this time it stems from the fact that I’ve made God is too small or that we in the church have made Him too small and I’m just having trouble finding Him. Is God really NOT in a box or He has tucked Himself inside of a box that we have imagined to be entirely too small. There I go talking about Him like He isn’t there again but even as I write my doubts about Him I get a sensation that He is here with me in the doubting.

I’ve had these moments of doubt before. About four and a half years ago I completely renounced my Christian faith for a couple of days. This made it very difficult to serve the church as a youth pastor and music minister, but let me give some context. My first marriage was crumbling and no matter how hard I prayed I couldn’t piece it back together. I was broken through and through. I was angry at my ex-wife, I was angry at the world, and I was angry at myself. The only one whom I felt safe directing my anger at was God since He was the only One with shoulders big enough to take the beating I was about to lash out.
At one point I stood alone in the sanctuary of my church pointing at the cross angrily shouting something like this at God. (Be warned the language is a little strong in places but it’s honest.)

“I gave you everything. I didn’t want to be a pastor. I hate being a pastor and I would never have done it if You hadn’t called me. Following You has ruined my marriage and my life. All these stupid rules about how you can’t drink and you can’t cuss and you can’t go to movies and you can’t be human are crazy. You’ve ruined everything you Son of a Bitch. If you were here right now I would crucify you myself. I don’t believe in You and I will not follow You anymore. You get someone else to do this job”.

I went back and sat in my office after that prayer. It’s weird to call it prayer but it was indeed prayer. It was a strange mixture of agonized sweat and tears mixed with numb ambivalence. In those few days I only told one person what I had done. Imagine that, I was a pastor and I didn’t believe in or want to follow God anymore. There was such a feeling of uncertainty and mental conflict in my life. I guess that’s what a crisis of faith is, an uncertainty about things that are supposed to be certain.

The odd thing was that a couple of days later I found myself alone in that sanctuary again crawling on my hands and knees toward the altar. I told God how sorry I was and that I knew I was wrong to say all those things to Him. I still didn’t like being a pastor but I was glad to do it if He had called me there. I told Him that I knew He didn’t cause my life to crumble or my marriage to fail. I just cried and sat with Him in the silence for a while.

I know it wasn’t a physical presence but in my spirit it felt like God was holding me tightly to his chest whispering in my ear: “It’s okay. No one else could have taken the beating you gave me. It didn’t hurt. I know you love me. I love You.” Ironically, in those few days when I renounced my faith, I experienced His closeness in the most real and profound way I ever had.

Fast forward to the present. Why the crisis of faith now? My heart has healed. As Andrew Peterson says, “The aching may remain but the breaking does not”. Life is very good. God brought a beautiful, funny, intelligent, and spiritual woman into my life who has become my wife. I have publishers interested in my music. I feel like my songwriting is getting better and more seasoned. I’m blessed beyond belief. Why now?

I’m not sure where this doubt is taking me but I know that I can rest on the places I stood in the past. I think God may be working something new in my life and in the life of those around me. I can’t even pretend to know what that is. I’ve been serving on staff at Springfield First Church of the Nazarene for 10 years now and I feel like there is a holy restlessness in me saying that more needs to be done, I just don’t know what that is.

Is God leading me through some new door? I don’t know, but if this sense of His absence is here because He wants me to follow Him somewhere, then I certainly want to go, even though I’m comfortable here. Maybe I’m too comfortable and that’s the problem. I’m not in despair, I’m just seeking to figure out these ants in my pants that Buechner spoke of. Lyrics by the late great singer Rich Mullins come to my mind today and I puzzle over things of faith.

“All I really need to know Is if You who live in eternity
Hear the prayers of those of us who live in time.
We can’t see what’s ahead and we can not get free of what we’ve left behind.
I’m reeling from these voices that keep screaming in my ears
All the words of shame and doubt, blame and regret.
I can’t see how You’re leading me unless You’ve led me here
Where I’m lost enough to let myself be led.

And so You’ve been here all along I guess
It’s just Your ways and You are just plain hard to get”.
–Rich Mullins (Hard To Get)

After reading over those words by Rich again I think I will just take the stance of Job and place my hand over my mouth. Lord, take me to a place where I am lost enough to let myself be led. But just once, could You be clear and unambiguous about it? Probably not, but I love you anyway.

The RLJ Podcast Co-Host Search

Ready to start recording the Rick Lee James ‘Voices In My Head’ podcast. I’m calling it Voices In My Head because it will cover things that speak to me. Looking for a co-host to dialogue about stuff we like. Music, movies, comics, books, etc through a theological lens. Applicants can contact me directly. Must know how to talk. Being a bit of a nerd with a good sense of humor won’t hurt either. Reply below and tell my why you should be my co-host. Points for creativity!


Tim Tebow, SNL, and Jesus.

In episode 10 of Saturday Night Live’s 37th Season, a skit aired that caused a lot of controversy. In the skit, Jesus appears to the Denver Broncos in their locker room and tells the team that indeed he is the reason they’ve won their last 6 football games, but they need to start doing some work themselves because he can’t be there all the time. Jesus knows Tebow prays to him before every game but what he needs to do along with that is stretch and read the playbook. Jesus just doesn’t have the time to come in and save them at the 4th quarter of every game.

Jesus then says it’s great that Tebow thanks God so much, but who they really should be thanking is their kicker Matt Prater. Then the dialogue is as follows:

Jesus: Matt Prater, I pray to you brother.

Matt Prater: You pray to me? I didn’t know that.

Jesus: Yeah, you know, uh, that’s because I’m not in everyone’s face about it. (He says this while giving an accusing look at Tim Tebow)

Jesus tells the team that he basically just goes where people call on him. He decides most NFL games, the CMA awards, and shows up at any black event where food is served. He then says, “Sorry, I’m forgiven” for making the statement about black people.

Jesus warns that the New England Patriots will be tough to beat and said that if he is the son of God that Tom Brady must be God’s nephew while comparing the Patriots coach, Bill Belichick, to the devil.

Many Christians understandably found this skit blasphemous. The complaint from most was that Jesus wasn’t treated with much reverence at all in this skit and was basically used to make jokes about Tim Tebow’s faith.
I understand why people of faith are so upset, but I honestly find a lot of humor and even some prophetic imagination in the skit. This skit was not portraying the real Tim Tebow nor was it portraying the real Jesus Christ. They were showing caricatures of what happens when people “pray standing in the synagogues and on the street corners” (Matthew 6:5)

Think about how many times on the CMA or MTV music awards someone thanks their Lord and Savior Jesus Christ for letting them win an award for their songs about cheating on a spouse, glorifying drug use, objectifying women, and condoning patriotic violence. How many times to sports stars thanks their God and then head off to a drug filled orgy.

Also, when the statement was made that Tebow needs to spend a little less time in the word and a little more time in the playbook I was reminded of my college days when so many of us “pious” religion majors would use our spiritual life as an excuse to slack off on our homework.

Now, I’m certain that Tim Tebow is no slacker and spends as much time in the playbook as he does the Bible. You don’t get to where he is without hard work. He seems like a decent, kind, authentic person who glorifies God in all he does and that’s awesome. Most of us will never have even one conversation with the Tim Tebow so we are not in a position to judge. And, it could be that SNL is simply poking fun at Christians but I think something more is going on.
Could it be that SNL simply called those of us who are Christians to be accountable to the God we serve? After all, wasn’t it Jesus who told us, “when you pray, go into your room, close the door and pray to your Father, who is unseen. Then your Father, who sees what is done in secret, will reward you.” (Mathew 6:6).

I personally have to thank the people at SNL for reminding me that as a Christian I will do my best work in secret. If Christians of faith were offended by this skit then maybe we needed to be. Let’s not forget that God can use anyone he wants to get the message out, even SNL. God used this irreverent skit to speak to my heart about my prayer life. I don’t think SNL’s point was to mock people of faith, but even if it was, let’s not forget what Joseph said in Genesis 50:20: “You meant it for evil, but God intended it for good”. Galatians 6:7 tells us that it isn’t possible for God to be mocked. It’s arrogant to think that a God so great could ever be threatened by small creatures like us. Let’s not miss what the Holy Spirit may be saying to us through this media moment that we will forget about in a matter of days.

Let’s pray for Tim Tebow as lives his faith before the world. Pray that he has lots of good people to keep him accountable because Christianity is not a lone ranger religion. He’s just a human and we need to be careful that we don’t put him or any other human up on a pedestal.

Let’s pray for ourselves too and how we present ourselves to the people in the media. When Christians get offended so easily it just shows them how right they were. How insecure are we in what we believe that we can’t take a joke? Instead, shouldn’t we take offense at the things in scripture that offend God? I don’t think SNL makes the list. God help us if we are only calling on Him at ball games and award shows.

Proverbs 6: 16-19 (NIV)
16 There are six things the LORD hates,
seven that are detestable to him:
17 haughty eyes,
a lying tongue,
hands that shed innocent blood,
18 a heart that devises wicked schemes,
feet that are quick to rush into evil,
19 a false witness who pours out lies
and a person who stirs up conflict in the community.

Merry Christmas Freebies

Merry Christmas,
I want to say thank you to all of you who have supported my ministry this year. In case you haven’t heard, www.itickets.com is featuring my song, Advent Hymn (Watching, Waiting, Longing) as the download of the week, as well as the Newsboys latest single “God’s Not Dead”. These songs will be available as free downloads at itickets.com until next Tuesday at midnight.

Also, all of my digital albums are temporarily on sale for only $4.99 at www.cdbaby.com as digital downloads. You will find several digital song downloads on that page that are not available anywhere else.

Finally, in the spirit of the Christmas I made a YouTube playlist that features several of the Christmas songs that I either wrote or covered over the years. You can find them at the link below. Have a Merry Christmas.

Rick Lee James Christmas Playlist